I'm alive but I'm dead. You know what I said about not knowing how to program? I, like many sad saps, really want to make a game. I really want to make, really. I want to make a game because I feel like I've been in a constant search for a specific game I want to play but can't describe. But then again, when I play Flash animated porn games that were clearly created by a very talented and passionate person, I feel almost more happy and fufilled than I feel about any full game that I have tens to hundreds of hours logged in.