IN THIS MODERN DAY AND AGE, IT'S EASY TO SAY "i will no longer say 'i'm going to kill myself'" AND FOR GOOD REASON-- THERE ARE SO MANY ALTERNATIVES THAT DON'T REINFORCE UNHEALTHY THOUGHT PATTERNS.

BUT I AM NOT A BELIEVER IN BLACK-AND-WHITE THINKING, THOUGH MY ACTUAL MIND SEEMS TO FEEL OTHERWISE.

EXPLETIVES ARE, AT BEST AND WHEN WELL-USED, SITUATIONAL.

JUST THIS AFTERNOON, AND THOUGH I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO SAY IT MANY MORE TIMES, I tHOUGHT SEVERAL TIMES "I AM GOING TO KEEL OVER AND DIE".

NOW, I'M THINKING A BIT MORE ON THE LINES OF... WELL... I DON'T FEEL MUCH FOR THINKING. BUT A GUY'S GOTTA BLOG. BUT FUCK ME MAN I WANT TO PUNCH A HOLE THROUGH A WALL.

UNFORTUNATELY MY FATHER NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO PUNCH AND I HAVE TENDER AND DELICATE KNUCKLES SO THE KEYBOARD WARRIOR'S ALTERNATIVE IS, WELL, JUST THAT. PUNCH AWAY AT A KEYBOARD WITH FULL FORCE BECAUSE THAT IS THE ONLY MUSCLE IN MY BODY. B-B-B-B-B-BUT EMIL! YOU SAID YOU WOULD EXPERIENCE CATHARSIS! FUCK YOU BUDDY I'VE GOT A WIDE SPECTRUM OF EMOTIONS... I'M COMPLEX... NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND THIS GUY'S TURMOILOUS INNER STORM OF A MIND... THESE INNER WORKINGS AND MECHANISMS ARE NOT UNDERSTOOD BY EVEN THE BEST ENGINEERS... OOH MAMA AND YOU KNOW THE LADIES LOVE A MYSTERIOUS AND BROODING MAN!

WELL, BACK TO THE INTELLECTUAL STUFF. IF YOU'RE FEELING A HORRIBLE STORMY TURMOIL WITHIN YOURSELF, NOT JUST IN THE MIND... BUT THE HEART (OH YES, THE LADIES LOVE A SENSITIVE MAN AS WELL...) IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART NOT TO FREE ONESELF FROM TENSION BEFORE YOU SEEK TO UNRAVEL THE REST OF THIS COMPLICATED WEB OF NONTANGIBLE THINGS THAT YOU WISH YOU KEPT REPRESSING BUT DECIDED TO START ADDRESSING WITHIN THE PAST 2 MONTHS? OF COURSE IT IS! BECAUSE I'VE BEEN TENSE FOR MAYBE THE PAST 48 HOURS AND MY NERVOUS SYSTEM IS NOT DOING WELL ON NONSTOP HEART PALPITATIONS AND NOT MUCH IN MY STOMACH OTHER THAN A FEW BITES OF CAFETERIA FOOD, SOME WATER AND ARIZONA, AND THE SWEDISH FISH THAT I WILL SAY KEPT ME SANE.

ALL DAY I WAS WONDERING WHY I KEPT SWALLOWING AND TASTING BLOOD IN MY MOUTH. NOW I 'SEE' CHUNKS OF BLOOD IN MY NOSE. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS COULD'VE HAPPENED. DRY WEATHER BLUES.
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IN THIS MODERN DAY AND AGE, IT'S EASY TO SAY "i will no longer say 'i'm going to kill myself'" AND FOR GOOD REASON-- THERE ARE SO MANY ALTERNATIVES THAT DON'T REINFORCE UNHEALTHY THOUGHT PATTERNS.

BUT I AM NOT A BELIEVER IN BLACK-AND-WHITE THINKING, THOUGH MY ACTUAL MIND SEEMS TO FEEL OTHERWISE.

EXPLETIVES ARE, AT BEST AND WHEN WELL-USED, SITUATIONAL.

JUST THIS AFTERNOON, AND THOUGH I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO SAY IT MANY MORE TIMES, I tHOUGHT SEVERAL TIMES "I AM GOING TO KEEL OVER AND DIE".

NOW, I'M THINKING A BIT MORE ON THE LINES OF... WELL... I DON'T FEEL MUCH FOR THINKING. BUT A GUY'S GOTTA BLOG. BUT FUCK ME MAN I WANT TO PUNCH A HOLE THROUGH A WALL.

ALL DAY I WAS WONDERING WHY I KEPT SWALLOWING AND TASTING BLOOD IN MY MOUTH. NOW I 'SEE' CHUNKS OF BLOOD IN MY NOSE. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS COULD'VE HAPPENED. DRY WEATHER BLUES.